One symptom that goes hand in hand with Eczema is Sleepless nights. I’m having yet again another one of those nights tonight.

It is now officially 5am. I slept at around 1.30am. Thought I would make myself sleepy enough to sleep through the night but yet again that does not work. I’m so itchy right now. Just took and antihistamine. That would start working around 5.30am. So I’ll be off to sleep at around 6am.

The thing is I have a long journey tomorrow. It will take two hours to get to my destination. I have to arrive there before 1pm. So I have to leave around 11am. I guess that’s not so bad. So I can wake up late. I don’t feel stress now. If I had to leave earlier I would be very stressed now. Its hubby’s company family day.

I’m so glad I have a freelance job. If I had a 9-5 job I don’t think i would be able to perform. With lack of sleep, you loose concerntration, focus, your decision making goes out the window. You loose balance too. So I dont drive when I have one of my sleeping spells.

Nowadays I just sleep when i feel sleepy. And I’ve learnt to take cat naps or power naps when I can. If I have a job to do I will make sure that I do it overly well so it looks like I am performing well. So far it has worked. My team has won awards for our hard work.

When I was at school, because I was sleepy and loosing concerntration and focus I was deemed a lazy and stupid girl. This stayed true right up till uni. Don’t ask me how I got there. It was a fluke i guess. When you say to a child that she is lazy and stupid over and over and over and over and over again. That child would start to believe it. And so did I. My Grades were affected as a result. So you can imagine that it affected my confidence too, right till my late twenties. I must admit, I still battle with my confidence every now and again.

ok I think my antihistamines are working. I’m going to try to get some sleep now. Wish me luck!

ItChY

Today I went to the local sundry nearby with my mum. Now I’ve been to this shop numerous times. Its where I grew up. An Indian family owns it. I’ve seen this family grow up, get married and have their own children.

The lady behind the till is the lady I have my short chats with about what to cook for dinner. Or how to cook an indian recipe. She is the lady I would ask for whatever it is I want and get it delivered to me by her employees without me having to step a foot further in the shop. That’s how well I know this lady. Read the rest of this entry »